Welcome! Glad you're here.
That terrified feeling has to run its course.
For me it lasted... well it's still sorta there lol
however i have become friends with it and am not so frightened as i was at first. Kinda takes the sting out when i am sitting by the fireplace with the kitty, listening to the rain on the steel roof. Or when my brain wraps around the fact that if i move, i am already packed, AND i don't need to leave my home, i get to take it with me... oh and it's paid off. lol Those things sorta ease the "wholy s@#& what am i doing?!" feelings that stirr up every now and then.
Steve... Buscemi?
Steve... Winwood?
Steve... Vai?!